In the end I fell back to the rabbit hole. It's the laxatives again and again. I usually take Dulcolax suppository tablets. It works well for me and the price is reasonable, although it's not safe to be taken daily. So the pack said I should take 2 a day but yesterday in the evening I took 3 and this morning I took another 2. I doubled it, yes.
Stomach cramps happened in the midnight and earlier in the morning after my daily basketball practice. It was super painful and I felt like pulling my stomach out of it's place. It hurts like hell but I think I deserve it. I've been eating a lot, I consider it as binging, for 3 days in a row in the weekend. Mostly around 1000 calories but I'll never know when I miscount or underestimate my intake.
It's around 1 in the afternoon I was planning to take a nap but since I've lost Internet connection from last night I'd get on Tumblr instead. I saw a lot of posts about eating disorders on my dashboard and it kills me inside that we live so far away and that we can't support each other in real.
Laxatives really hurts our colone. I'd been taking up to 20 pils at once, it's horrible. D8
ReplyDeleteHi Rayna :)
DeleteAnd 20?! Wow. Never imagined someone would take that many pills! I usually take 3-5 pills depending on how much I ate in that day.
You really should lower the number :(
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