Sick

I'm feeling so sick today. I slept for 11 hours straight from 4am to 3pm. Skipped breakfast though but ate lunch like a pig.
The last night I didn't eat anything after dinner. Which is good.
And I saw some pictures of myself when I was skinnier. And got really depressed and went crying for hours :(
I can't take it anymore.

Sometimes I feel like jumping off a bridge and get hit by a train or car is the best thing to do. No one here to support me. My mom keeps on pressuring me about food.
Although she gives me chocolates then yell at me the next day after I ate them. All. Of course.
She has no idea about eating disorders. All she knows is that I do fad diets and that's it.

I just got back from 2 vacations. The first one was to the US, and I lost quite a lot from that and I was happy. I went there alone so no one to tell me to eat. So I starved. I did really well.
My second vacation was to Australia with my whole family. It was, awful.
I are every single meal. Every. Single. Shit. A lot of calories. Plus the snacks.
I gained 4 pounds in 10 days.

What I need to do now is lose at least 4 pounds next week. And keep going with losing 2-3 pounds the next 8 weeks before my meeting with my friend from America.

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We can do this.